so here we are...

...9 days later. its been a tough 9 days. really tough. and i know the next 21.5 will be just as much so. but i've learned a lot in this long week +.

a lot about trust. patience. faith. endurance. humility and wisdom. im in love. the time spent apart, whether you can call it voluntary or involuntary is simply the will of the Lord. no action is taken against one (or two) of His own that is not directly or indirectly ordained by Him. chose for a purpose, or allowed for the same. in the book of Job, God clearly shows many things through suffering. one, that His purpose is brought forth regardless of how exactly it is done. Satan is allowed by God to do anything and everything He wants to Job. everything, that is, except for take his life. there are so many lessons we learn from this, and far more that Job did. but a big part of what he learned was that at the end of the day, the Lord was His strength, and his foundation. and when everything, and i mean EVERYTHING, fell apart- the Lord is precisely who he held on to.

that being said, i'm learning the same thing. i'm doing better, i'm growing. do i miss her any less? nope. i miss her more than i could ever imagine. i'm more in love with her than i ever have been. and continue to be more so every day. and because of that, there really is only one resolution. to continue fighting to trust in Him, the one who holds my futre, the one who has gone before me, the one who was, is, and always will be.

i'm exhausted, this might be a little scattered. if so, i apologize.

chandler.